Monday, December 31, 2007

To the world, he was a soldier; to me, he was the world

Just watched the ending of a very tragic documentary on the history channel, Last Day of World War I: 11th Month, 11th Day, 11th Hour. It described the senseless deaths of thousands of soldiers just hours before the end of the war.

The Armistice (warring parties agree to stop fighting) was signed but some American officers continued to order men into the field due to ambiguous directions and for their own vain-glory. As a result, men who were told they could go home and had families and friends already celebrating their home-coming, either died or returned badly injured.

An anonymous epitaph by a grieving parent went something like this:
To the world, he was a soldier; to me, he was the world.

It is sad that the pain of thousands of nameless individuals are usually left out. The saddest part of all is that these futile waste of lives are still carrying on. Wars, assassinations and fighting still hogged news headlines every so often.

My wish for the new year is for a better tomorrow for everybody.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Animation

Been watching lots of stuff to cheer myself up, my current favourite is School Rumble and my msn nick is on it... the quote is somewhat from one of it's main character Harima Kenji. He is an ex-delinquent who goes to school now to get close to his love interest, clueless and hopeless Tsukamoto Tenma, who loves another.

I like what he said, "The truth hurts... but if just thinking won't net me any results, then I won't even think. And accept it all. Even then, I'm still able to smile." Thanks for everyone's concern! And watch School Rumble!





Anyway, I watch some Disney clips on Youtube and I don't know why a lot of my friends dismiss Snow White, I think the drawing is beautiful. Please take a look although it loads slowly.




It has a softer look and maybe it's soppy romance but I think the innocence is sweet, rather unlike the wittiness of later Disney shows like this one from Aladdin.

Of course I enjoyed it but sometimes I miss the old school feeling, where everything is pure and lovely. I think it's a trend towards cynicism which is a little sad. Sigh, got to go back to work. Haven't been quite able to concentrate but shall try!

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Xianhong's farewell to me

This is a sad song from Tanya that described his feelings... it's nice but heart-breaking for me

Tonight I write the saddest lines...

Tonight I write the saddest lines... because of I'm alone again, romantically speaking, I've still got friends (I hope, kidding to all friends out there). The truth hurts but I can still take it and smile.

I am sorry to Xianhong for all the heartaches I caused him and I thank him for all the good times.
I wish him all the best and that he'll be happy always.
I'll still shower Hammie with tender loving care... because he's old and I want him to enjoy whatever time that remains to him... joking, it's more for the love we shared.

To all friends, I am sorry for being distracted and distant all these while. I have been too wrapped up in my own misery and neglected everyone else.

Haix, I am sorry it turned out this way but I guess we're too different. I don't remember how we met but I do remember we were classmates and I found him irritating! He would ask the tutor difficult questions and I sat through them because I was too kiasu not to and felt irritated as I want to go home! Later, we became friends and had great fun as a class doing crazy things like run after physics exam.

I dunno when he started to like me as I was still thinking of someone else. It was so sweet, he thought of activities to do every weekend even though he was busy with hall orientation. One night, he told me a story of a boy who liked a girl very much but did not know what to do because he knew she still like someone else and admitted himself to be the boy. I was touched by his promise to make me smile again.

I was really happy and liked doing things for him, buying supper and everything. I think the turning point was when he decided I do project with him and go SEP with him. I was very stressed doing project with him and his friends, they were a close bunch and I could not but feel left out. Being a homely person, going SEP was a fruitful but painful experience.

Miserably, I took it out on him by faulting him and dredging up past misdeeds... my favourite being him not taking time out from hall to see me when I was ill. Ok, shan't remind myself of unhappy things! Shall think of the nice things he did like buying plaster for my blistering feet instead.

Anyway, it's like a dream with a rude awakening. I am hurt and sad but he is too, I am sorry to be the cause of it. Once again, my great apologies and thanks for everything... Take care and farewell!