Love HC Wushu!

Thank you everybody for the wonderful gathering (sending-off-teresa cum early-bday-for-me)! I love the sumptuous dinner, the macaron birthday "cake", the presents, and most of all you all! Think I need to slim down a bit to look svelt in the top... oops!

Yummy yummy!

Hercules/Zhiyong, Biyun, Huijun, me, Teresa, Zhaoqi & Lixiang!

My new top, my funny birthday card, lovely macarons, huijun's drawing, blow bubble set!

Bon voyage, Teresa! Take care of yourself in India, and remember to bargain as adviced: "400 rupees? i'll buy at 40!"

Zhaoqi, the earrings are lovely! Thank you for organizing and always there for everyone with your calm and comforting presence.

Jiayou, jiayou, jiayou, jiayou, jiayou, jiayou! Biyun and Hercules, we've only got this awful month to go before we're FREE!

Aren't you so lucky to have met us, Huijun? We're so fun to be with! And we're always trying to be there for each other, a looong and true friendship!

Don't forget to play bubbles and piggyback me k, Lixiang, you promised!!! Okok, dun stress you le, know you have lots of commitments so glad that you came today =p Coming up are Junyuan and Zhaoqi's birthdays, MUST come k!

So happy to read these well-wishes!

Whatever life brings us next, we'll always have these beautiful memories with us! Makes me think a little of this song, rather melancholic but I like it very much and I connect it with very dear friends... enjoy =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wL2kkwJrQEc

To...

To fernfreak, I've passed your well-wishes to Huijun today and hope you will both always be fast friends! I'm guessing you are very concerned about her and hoping for every little news you can get about her. I visited her today and she is improving and surrounded by people who care despite the difficulties. Thanks for the encouragement and I'm sure she appreciates your kindness.

To someone, my greatest apologies for complaining so bitterly about you. I visit my friend in hospital to cheer her up and gained some insight along the way. It was very low of me to say such terrible things, no matter how aggrieved I felt. Neither of us was blameless so all the best for the final dash before graduation!

To Papa and Mummy, I love you all for loving me unconditionally. Haha, but I know you know that, me always looking out for the adorable stuff Mummy adores and queueing up for "ba gua" for greedy Papa! I will work hard, get a well-paying job so I can let you all enjoy life. Living out Mummy's philosophy that being filial is to treat parents well when they're alive and not put up a show when they've gone to a better place.

Friends?

Congratulations to NTU ACES , both senior and junior teams were spectacular clinching 1st and 3rd respectively! It sure was an eye-opener for Teresa and me and the primary school teams were adorable! Lixiang must be over the moon!

Anyway, Teresa told me some things Zhaoqi did for Huijun and I got quite upset. I really get very angry when people take advantage of my friends (e.g. this horrible boy asked my friend why her assets so small so I've squashed his every attempt to befriend me eversince and feeling vindictive pleasure I'm making him pay for his insult). Zhaoqi is so caring towards Huijun, visiting her once every 2 days + all the other help in the past, I don't understand how she could demand more, calling and wanting Zhaoqi to appear.

Maybe she's very upset and not thinking straight (I can't quite get angry at a friend). I really hope she doesn't chase away anymore people who care for her by being difficult. Haha, maybe I should relflect on myself. Towards the end of that relationship, I was so numb that I don't care what he did anymore.

Sigh, please get well soon permanently and fast, it's really very hard on so many people who care. See, FYP-stressed-Biyun, billion-activities-Lixiang, earning-tuition$$$-Zhaoqi and TE-&-family-oriented-Teresa made the effort to pop by and support her, there's so much love showered! Be strong!

Even if you don't believe in yourself, believe in me who believes in you! -- Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagaan

Depression

Haix, just returned from visiting Huijun in Tan Tock Seng Hospital. I feel like an insensitive idiot, I was busy plucking quotes from her livejournal when she was languishing with depression.

Seeing her like that hurts me terribly. I really tried to be there for her, calling and listening to her, even if I have a test or meeting my FYP prof the next day or just back from training. Was all that for nothing? Maybe, I should just forget about trying.

That is my life, doing things that don't help. Doing things that are superfluous and hence unnoticed until I ask out of bewilderment, waiting and waiting for someone who is too busy to care, thinking continuously how to help but taken for granted, giving things up for someone who thinks they're no big deal and insists on having his cake and eat it too... prolonged disappointment deadens any affection and plunges into blind misery.

So very tired. Don't know whether I would visit her again. I should but it'd only make me think of how sad I am and why.

Rainy day

Wished Elsa happy belated birthday yesterday with Sijia, was a day late but still earlier than Benjamin!!! Elsa is one of the people I look up to, level-headed, caring, intelligent and pretty. Sijia is my other pretty friend... does this mean I'm humsup?!! Haha, we're friends from HCJC days and our favourite Maths teacher always tell us YES 95 should be off the airways during her lessons (Yanlian, Elsa, Sijia) but we prefer to be called Powerpuff girls then (Sijia is Blossom, Elsa is Bubbles and I'm Buttercup).

Suppose to do work now but I just feel like snuggling in my blankets with a cup of hot milo on this rainy day. So just did that and plucked a whole lot of cute quotes from Huijun's livejournal (how does one use that?). Enjoy!

if i hadn't met you, i wouldn't like you...
if i hadn't like you, i wouldn't love you...
if i wouldn't love you, i wouldn't miss you...
BUT I DO, I DID, AND I WILL.

On my death bed, I want to remember the great naps I took.

sometimes it's best to forget how you feel & remember what you deserve

All i want is for ONE boy, to prove that they're not all the SAME.

Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind!

Best friends: they know how stupid you are and still choose to be seen with you

I think I'm afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happens -- Charlie Brown


The only people you need in your life are the ones that need you in theirs.

You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams. -- Dr Seuss

Love the life you live
Live the life you love -- Bob Marley

My knight in shining armor turned out to be a loser in aluminium foil.

You're the only one who can make me laugh when I don't even want to smile.

Don't make someone YOUR PRIORITY
When you're only THEIR OPTION

i'd rather be hated for who i am
than loved for who i am NOT -- Kurt Cobain

i want a boy who i can run to;
with tears running down my face & the first thing he says is...
"whose ass am i kicking babe?"

Haha, the very sweet and romantic ones are near impossible! Well, the blue ones did make me think of someone very dear to me, who told me many times to tell him who bullied me so he can beat them up! Hmm, a lot of them made me think of friends who I have not met for a long time and i just want them to know that i would always try my best to cheer them up when they're blue!

Beginning of an end?

Beginning of March 2008 and I am determined to do work. I have been moping way too long and hiding from the real world. Truth is, I am feeling incredibly lost and miserable now. I dislike what I am studying, my final year project sucks, still getting acclimated to a broken heart and still sick!

I have to thank many friends, including Zhengxi, Terence and all but most of all Lixiang and my favourite auntie. He is extremely busy but still responds to my vaporings on msn (I find it very hard to talk about my feelings). My auntie has watched me grow up and knows me through and through. Since I started studying instead of pursuing art, I should finish it the best I can and keep art as a side hobby. There are so many people around me who love and care for me.

Don't know how to put it but really very touched and kind of teared when he said that. I know that he'd do anything to make me smile and be happy, even if it hurts him like mad and even though I disappointed and let him down many times. Wish he'd know that I'll do the same for him too. So funny, he's not perfect (always so emo and putting up despairing nicks) but I always have the innate belief in him that he can put everything right!

Well, chop chop, got to pull through this awful last semester and I'd be free!