可爱 = 可怜没人爱

Thomas told me I was cute, half anyway, because cute = ugly but adorable, so I belong to the ugly category due to 3 large disfiguring stress-induced pimples. To add insult to injury, Alex told me the meaning of cute or 可爱 -- 可怜没人爱.

After laughing, I felt a little sad. Someone told me that most jokes contain a percentage of truth. Which is pretty true, otherwise it is nonsense and a good joke cannot be all nonsense. So, I reflected and recalled that I went through the lowest points of my life alone.

Firstly, not because my friends were not there for me but because I did not like to burden them. I am deeply touched at those who noticed and those who did not, they must have been troubled too. I busied myself with activities to not think during the day but at night, it's kind of hard and I lapse back.

Just the other night, when coming back from work, I saw a woman sobbing her heart out on the shoulder of a man. I felt intensely sorry, I think she must have been in deep misery to cry like that in public, luckily she has that friend. That plus the pall of economic uncertainties plus the erratic global warming (overshadowed by the market crises) made me think that life sucks.

I hope to have a SHORT HAPPY life, and if not happy, then at least USEFUL. I'm terrified of leading a meaningless life. Well, making baby-steps now, like making papa, mummy and brother happy. Do my best in my job, the company contributes to 10% of Singapore's GDP, so indirectly helping fellow countrymen.

A very special Children's Day

My company adopts RCMDS as their charity, so we employees are given 3 options: be a volunteer for their Children's Day celebration, give up 1 day's pay or nothing. Guess which option I took?

Anyway, it was fun and meaningful, but sadly, no names and photos of the children I interacted with today because it is quite a sensitive issue. Anyway, volunteers just helped out the teachers with activities organised for the kids.

We did body painting, make bubbles, balloon crafting and cartoon screening. I drew on some kids... and got drawn on a lot! My arms were scrawled with crazy lines but it feels good to see some of them trying things for themselves. I feel really happy when they grab onto your hand, although that affection is fleeting, the warmth of the touch lingers.

Balloon crafting was new to me and I learned how to make a flower, rabbit and dog! Below is Siew Lian (my Lian sister in my division) and me, taken by Elsie (our group photo was too blur).

She took the photo right at the top of the white rabbit balloon I made... I hope it brings brings good cheer to whoever brought it home! To the innocent child in all of us, Happy Children's Day =)