Tonight I write the saddest lines...

Tonight I write the saddest lines... because of I'm alone again, romantically speaking, I've still got friends (I hope, kidding to all friends out there). The truth hurts but I can still take it and smile.

I am sorry to Xianhong for all the heartaches I caused him and I thank him for all the good times.
I wish him all the best and that he'll be happy always.
I'll still shower Hammie with tender loving care... because he's old and I want him to enjoy whatever time that remains to him... joking, it's more for the love we shared.

To all friends, I am sorry for being distracted and distant all these while. I have been too wrapped up in my own misery and neglected everyone else.

Haix, I am sorry it turned out this way but I guess we're too different. I don't remember how we met but I do remember we were classmates and I found him irritating! He would ask the tutor difficult questions and I sat through them because I was too kiasu not to and felt irritated as I want to go home! Later, we became friends and had great fun as a class doing crazy things like run after physics exam.

I dunno when he started to like me as I was still thinking of someone else. It was so sweet, he thought of activities to do every weekend even though he was busy with hall orientation. One night, he told me a story of a boy who liked a girl very much but did not know what to do because he knew she still like someone else and admitted himself to be the boy. I was touched by his promise to make me smile again.

I was really happy and liked doing things for him, buying supper and everything. I think the turning point was when he decided I do project with him and go SEP with him. I was very stressed doing project with him and his friends, they were a close bunch and I could not but feel left out. Being a homely person, going SEP was a fruitful but painful experience.

Miserably, I took it out on him by faulting him and dredging up past misdeeds... my favourite being him not taking time out from hall to see me when I was ill. Ok, shan't remind myself of unhappy things! Shall think of the nice things he did like buying plaster for my blistering feet instead.

Anyway, it's like a dream with a rude awakening. I am hurt and sad but he is too, I am sorry to be the cause of it. Once again, my great apologies and thanks for everything... Take care and farewell!